Dead

I...
Always waiting here...
Always standing here...
Always be here...


I...
See you...
Hear you...
Feel you...


But...
You go...
You leave...
You disappear...


Could you hear me...
Cry out to you...
Words I tought...
I'd choke when I figure out...


And now...
I desperate...
I weak...
I fall...


Why...
I still love you...
I still want you...
I still dream on you...


Let me go...
Please...
Just let me go...


Let me dead...
Please...
Let me dead!
Its better...
Than I see you with him...
Than I see you touch him...
Than I see you hold him...
Than I keep this pain...


You...
Put a spike in my heart...
Kill me inside...
Break my souls...
Silence my shadow...


I really really dont know...
Why...
I cant turn from you...
You give me nothing...
Except pain...
You hurt me so deep...


Now...
Im already dead...
Yes...
Im Dead...

Helena - My Chemical Romance

Well...I post in again after Syeh The MCRmy...But you know...For me,the Helena lyrics was very very good and deep...They tell us exactly what I feel, and what's happening to me...So just check it out...

Long ago...
Just like the hearse you die to get in again...
We are so far from you...


Burning on...
Just like a match you strike to incinerate...
The lives...
Of everyone you know...


And what's the worst you take...
From every heart you break...
And like a blade you stain...
Well...
I've been holding on...
Tonight...


What's the worst that I could say...
Things are better if I stay...
So long and goodnight...
So long and goodnight...


Came a time...
When every stars fall...
Brought you to tears again...
We are...
The very hurt you sold...

And what's the worst you take...
From every heart you break...
And like a blade you stain...
Well...

I've been holding on...

Tonight...

What's the worst that I could say...
Things are better if I stay...
So long and goodnight...
So long and goodnight...


Well if you carry on this way...
Things are better if I stay...
So long and goodnight...
So long not goodnight...


Can you hear me...
Are you near me...
Can we pretend...
To leave and then...
We'll meet again...
When both our cars...
Collide...


What's the worst that I could say...
Things are better if I stay...
So long and goodnight...
So long not goodnight...


Well if you carry on this way...
Things are better if I stay...
So long and goodnight...
So long and goodnight...

You Are...

You are...
The night...
The stars...
The whispers...
The light...
The pain...
The blood...
The end...
The wound...
The hopeless...
The unforgettable...


You walks on the broken glass...
You look for place to hide...
You ruin the shadow...
You freeze the air...
You turn off the light...
You kill me inside...


I've tried...
To hold you...
To protect you...
To hear you...
To chase you...


But you...
Never seem to understand...
Never seem to see...
Never seem to think...
Never seem to realize...


That I...
Always there beside you...

Please...

Im standing here...
At the top of the highest ruined building...
Staring at the night sky...
Without stars...
Just the moon...
That accompany me...
Tonight...


This curious...
Have always blinded me...
If I could...
I just wanna jump down from here...
And feel the cold death...


Im nothing...
Except confused...
Tried to guess...
Tried to figure out...


I cant sleep tight...
I cant see well...
I couldnt breath...


Please...
Dont let me ask the night...
Dont make me confuse...
Dont make me desperate...
Dont let me dead...


Please...
Tell me if you love me...
Tell me if I always come to your dreams...
Tell me if I stayed in your heart...
Tell me if I always appear in your eyes...


Even if I dont...
I want...
To hold your arms...
To staring your eyes...
To sit next to you...
To feel your presence...
To keep you in my heart...


Cause the hardest part of this...
Is leaving you...

Perasaanku

Well...I repost it from shintaagh.blogspot.com . That blog belongs to Shinta Aghnia Adeline...A girl that really good in poetry...And well...Check it out...


"Jujur...
Aku menyukaimu sejak awal kita bertemu
Sejak kamu menyimpan sedikit kepedulian tentang hidupku
Sejak kamu sering mengajakku untuk berbincang-bincang membicarakan hal yang tidak penting

Jujur...
Aku senang sekali bisa mengenalmu
Bisa lebih dekat denganmu

Entah kapan...
Aku mulai mencintaimu
Aku mulai menyayangimu

Tapi mengap...
Saat itu kau tak merasakan hal yg sama
Seperti halnya yg aku rasakan
Seperti halnya yg aku inginkan

Lalu aku pun menjalin hubungan dengan lelaki lain
Untuk segera melupakanmu
Melupakan arti dari kepedulianmu
Yang ku rasa cinta
Namun ternyata salah

Beberapa saat aku bisa melupakanmu
Namun entah mengapa
Perasaanku tak dapat beralih

Aku berusaha terus melupakanmu
Namun ternyata ku dapati bahwa aku benar-benar tak bisa
Dan aku baru sadar
Sahabatku, mulai menyukaimu

Begitu sakit, ketika aku tau sahabatku menyukaimu
Aku berusaha untuk bertahan
Aku tau dia pantas untukmu
Dan yg lebih sakit...
Ku dapati bahwa kamu pun menyukainya
Biarlah
Biar aku yg mengalah...

Namun aku pun bahagia
Aku bisa melihat senyummu seindah itu
Meski itu bukan karenaku
Meski itu karena dia..."

Merobek Hati

Well...I saw this writing in Facebook...This belongs to my friend, Matt Squad Seven .Im not sure if this is his own creation...(Kidding Matt)

"Apa yang membuat kau mencintainya...
Selalu menyayanginya...
Hingga kau tak ingin tuk berpaling...
Setiap hari...
Kau bicarakan dia....

Dan tanpa kau sadari...
Kau merobek hati ini
Sungguh sakit...

Semua rasaku padamu...
Terbalas sudah...
Dengan semua kesakitan..
Dan semua cinta yang aku beri...
Sudah terbalaskan.....
Dengan air mata...

Memang bukan salahmu...
Melakukannya kepadaku...
Karena kau tak tahu...
Isi hatiku...

Aku terlalu pengecut...
Tuk mengatakan ku mencintaimu....
Apa adanya...." 

Maaf...

Well...Actually,I made this for my friends...This is a love story about him...So for my fans...Dont worry...Im still single (who ask that???)

"Dahulu kala...
Ketika  kita  masih  bersama...
Saat  kau  masih  milikku...
Saat  hatimu  hanya  untukku...

Aku  telah  mencoba...
Melakukan  apa  yang  kau  minta...
Memenuhi  apa  yang  kau  ingin...
Bahkan  walau  semua  itu  mustahil...

Tetapi  kini...
Saat  kau  telah  pergi...
Semua  terasa  berbeda...
Sepi...
Tak  ada  lagi  yang  menemani...

Kau  punya  yang  lain  sekarang...
Aku  hanya  bisa  melihat  dari  jauh...
Aku  membatin  dalam  hati...
Andaikan  kau  kembali  padaku...
Tetapi  aku  tahu  semua  itu  tak  mungkin  terjadi...

Namun...
Sesuatu  bergerak  dalam  pikiranku...
Menyadarkanku...

Bahwa  dia  bisa  membahagiakanmu...
Lebih  dari  aku  membahagiakanmu...
Semua  itu  terlukis  di  senyummu...
Yang  kau  beri  untuknya...
Bukan  untukku...

Aku  pun  hanya  bisa  pasrah...
Tak  ada  yang  bisa  aku  lakukan...
Andaikan  waktu  bisa  terulang...
Tentu  aku  akan  memperbaiki  semuanya...

Aku   hanya  ingin  bilang...
Maaf...
Karena  dulu  aku  tak  bisa  membahagiakanmu...
Karena  dulu  aku  tak  bisa  melukis  senyum  di  wajahmu...
Tetapi...
Walau  sedikit  waktu  yang  kau  beri  untukku...
Aku  hanya  ingin  kau  tahu...
Bahwa...
Aku  menyayangimu..."

Hanya Kau

Well...Actually,Im an Indonesian so...I made this with Indonesian language...But dont worry...Ill always make these in Indonesian and English...


"Akankah kutemukan tempat...
Yang lebih indah daripada di pelukanmu...
Akankah kutemukan suara...
Yang lebih merdu daripada bisikanmu...
Akankah kutemukan sutera...
Yang lebih halus daripada wajahmu...
Akankah kutemukan kapas...
Yang lebih lembut dari uraian rambutmu...
Akankah kutemukan air...
Yang lebih jernih daripada matamu...
Akankah kutemukan mawar...
Yang lebih cantik daripada parasmu...
Akankah kutemukan rasa...
Yang lebih nyaman daripada cintamu...


Tidak...
Hanya pelukanmu...
Hanya bisikanmu...
Hanya wajahmu...
Hanya uraian rambutmu...
Hanya matamu...
Hanya parasmu...
Hanya cintamu...
Yang bisa membuatku merindukanmu..."

Desperate

And this is mine...I repost this from Syeh The MCrmy

"Before...
"Im an evil...
That never know about love and happiness...


I live my bored life...
Every day...
And every night...
That's all passed like it never happened...


But one day...
Something happened...


I saw you there...
Right behind me...
Maybe just 50 cm far...
You sat there...
Working your test...


When the night fell...
I cant closed my eyes...
There's just one thing in my mind...
Your face...


I tried to talk to you on the next days...
You're a kind girl...
Then there we are...
Talking like an old friend...
And forget about our test...


After that embrace...
My life has changed...
From bad to good...
From dark to light...
From black to white...


And after almost a year passed...
I presume myself...
And got ready to tell you what I feels...


But...
In the cold night...
I opened your social network profile...
And got an information that...
You have a new boyfriend...


I feel...
Painful...
Numb...
Dead...
Like killed by thousand blades...
Like fell from the highest building...
Like I never live before...
And will never live my life anymore...


But I know I couldnt give up...
I always tried...
And tried...


What's the worst that I could say...
I just wanna see you happy...
Even without me...
So I sacrifice my love...
Just for you...


And maybe you never realized...
When you're walking...
Or laughing with your friends...
There are a pair of eyes...
Staring at you from a distance...


And you know what???
Its my eyes..."

Intermezzo

Well...Remember Intermezzo in Syeh the MCRmy ? Ill post it again here... :)))


Well, I see this writing in Facebook...This note belongs to...Someone...Someone that I always see in my dreams...And she knows exactly what I feel...And this is it...I dont translate to keep it original...I just edited few things like the capital letters, etc...


"Dalam hati...
Aku menangis...
Aku terluka...
Aku tersakiti...
Dengan perasaan ini...
Yang kian hari kian menyiksa...


Begitu sakit...
Ketika aku menyadari bahwa kamu mencintai orang lain...
Bukan aku...


Begitu sakit...
Ketika aku melihatmu tertawa karena dia...
Bukan karena aku...


Sampai kapan aku harus berpura-pura...
Tidak mencintaimu...
Tidak peduli tentangmu...


Sampai kapan aku harus begini...
Menutupi semua perasaanku...
Bahwa sebenarnya aku mencintaimu...


Aku tahu...
Memilikimu adalah hal yang tidak mungkin...


Aku juga tahu...
Aku tak ada di hatimu...
Di mimpimu...
Di dalam hidupmu...


Aku tahu...
Sebenarnya kau tidak mencintaiku...
Tapi aku tak tahu...
Kenapa sampai sekarang aku masih bertahan dengan perasaan ini..."

Well...Thumbs up for that writing :))))...

Intro

Well...Hi again...Um..Ill use this blog...Not for MCR..Its for myself...So yeah...Thats it...And dont forget to visit Syeh The MCRmy !!!!!

And um...Thank you very much for HER that always gimme inspiration to create all of this....