...

Well I dont know how I started this. Its not a poetry, no. I just wanna tell you about my fuckin' feeling right now. Okay.
Like the other story, everything started by a girl. Im not going to tell her name, but lets call her M for now. Well this M, she's my biggest crush. Its been 2 years for me for liking her. And I think I love her. Yeah I really do.
Everybody in my class have knew that I like this M. Every single person in my whole goddamned class.
And I have a band. We're 5 and one of them, lets call him R, is a little bit fuckin arrogant. Well at first I can accept that because we're friends, plus he's my bandmate. But now, he said that he likes M. And how fucking sad, M likes R too. They went home together, sat in class together, they did every fucking thing together. I think they're dating, but when one of my friend asked them, they answered with no.
But I believe they're dating.
The fact is, R still has a girlfriend. My theory, they're dating, but R told M to not to tell anyone about them. He used the reason that he was sorry for me, because he knew that I love M. And I believe M agreed, and then they shut their goddamned mouth. And I know why he's sorry for me. Because the motherfucking band is nothing without me. He told one of my friend by himself that they cant let me out from the band because they really need me. Im the one who gave the name of the band, the vocalist, and the one who made the songs. So they wont just let me out from the band. Because they know, if Im out from the band, Ill take the name and songs with me.
So R got M by not losing his girlfriend and he saved the band by not losing me. Yes, he got everything. And I have nothing except pain.
Its just my theory, but I believe all of them are fuckin real. The truth, its hurt enough to accept that they like each other, but it hurts more when I figured out that they lied.
I know I could just fight him, even I can stab a goddamned blade to his empty head. But by doing that, it feels like, like Im the one who lose the fight. Its like, Im angry with the fact that he wins M. No, I 've fall down, and I dont wanna show it to him. Ill live my life in front of his fuckin face.
But these truth is killing me. I have a lot of problems at home, and the only place for me to entertain myself is school. But now its the place that gimme the worst problem. Plus Im going to have a big test.
Im in a huge depression. I screamed, wishing death, slitted wrist, everything that a stressed man did. I know all of them are useless and wouldnt change anything, but what can I do? All I can do is just waiting the destiny to change the words of my life...      

A Buried feeling

When the drama ends...
And the night fells...
You'll never quit...
You'll play the role...

Im bleeding...
Just like your poisoned heart...
Running away...
Seeking for a light...

Chorus:
Watch you dance...
Couldnt breath like a dying sun in your hand...
Let it go...
And never come back...
Will never come back...
Again...

Death will find me...
Like it never ends...
You're the on e who can save me...
You could careless...

Say so long...
We'll never meet again...
A wish will die...
Darkness will raise

Back to Chorus

The Poisoned

I know...
It is hard to say...
Start to sink with a bullet in my heart...

You breathe...
All the poisoned air...
With all the sins you have made...

Chorus:
Die...
I wish you die...
Fall will never hurt you...
Shot will never harm you...
This blade is gonna kill you...

Trying...
Try to remember...
Kill all the past that I regret...

Take this gun and make it done...
You said...
This is only way to end this all...

You killed me and buried me...
You dont have any chance...
You afraid you will lose this all...
Even if you cry...

Your tears mean nothing to me...
Your bllood is just a fake...
I cant see the way you stab me...
You could careless...

Back to Chorus

The Dead Heart Story

Well I've disappear (hahaha *evil laugh) about 3 months (maybe more) and Im not return with nothing. I've made a song,and I think its the best song  of mine (this far).Well juz check this fuckin out!

When you just come and go...
I've wonder if you know...
Ill never let it blow...
Keep watching the scarecrow...

When sky starts turn to black...
You dont know if Im cracked...
The heartbeat never ends...
Till you came...

Pre-Chorus:
Could you see...
There is somebody...
Staring at you from a distance...
Could you feel...
There was nobody...
That wanted your heart as I am...

Chorus:
Dont turn away...
Ill stay here with you...
Just see the way...
I've coming through...
You let me die...
You burn the sky...
Leave me alone...
With all the wound...
So just let me...
Alone...

The nightmare wakes me up...
It never wants to stop...
Just like the heart you breaking all the time...

Your precence and your call...
Just direct me to the fall...
You never realize...
That this heart dies...

I let you go...
Let you flow...
Never let you know...

Just let me die...
Let me fly...
Let me take my way...
To...
Death...

Back to Pre-Chorus

Back To Chorus

Its The Time

Maybe its the time...
To tell the truth...
To revealed everything...
Everything...

Now I know...
Maybe its hard to say...
Maybe its hard to see...
Maybe its hard to feel...

I've been waiting...
Waiting all the time...
Wondering when...
Asking why...

But now...
The chance has come...
I should be brave...
I should...

I could'nt resist this...
And I know...
You're the best for me...
No one else...

I should say this...
I could say this...
I would say this...

You...
Are...
My...
Love...

Notice

Well...I juz wanna say that...I made these poetry just for fun...Sometimes I made it seriously and intended to someone...Or sometimes, I juz made it as what I was think...I could'nt keep make the sad poetry, was'nt it??? Or otherwise, I could'nt keep make a happy poetry too...I just make it for myself, or for my friends...So if some of you all get "hurted" by my poetry...Im sorry...Its nothing than the true friendship, right??

Under The Rain

Look at me...
Please...
Look at me here...

These raindrops are the witness...
For the angel that comes to earth...
Without a wing...
Without a harp...

You're an angel...
With a long straight hair...
With a bright eyes...
Even when its rain...
Even when its dark...
Your light will never die...

Give me a reason to stay...
To keep staring at you here...
To keep standing here...
Under the rain...

Give me a reason to believe...
Believe that these all was real...

But I know...
You're not mine...
We'll never be together...
I'll never be with you...
You'll go soon...
And I'll keep standing here...
Under the rain...
Staring at the place where you was stand...
And keep hope that you'll come back...

The Truth

How many times...
I should told you...
I should say...
I should prove...

I just wanna be with you...
No others...
Why you never seem to understand...

She's just my friend...
Not much from it...
Not much...

But why you keep pushing me...
Never give me a chance...

Could you see that...
Could you accept that...
Could you feel that...

Nothing worst that I could say...
I've tried...
Its up to you now...

To recognize me...
Or leave me...

Till I Die

Now I know...
I'll never be yours...
I'll never be with you...
I'll never get you...

And I know...
I could'nt do anything...
I could do nothing...
I should face the truth...

Im dying when you say his name...
Even if my mouth was sealed...
I could'nt breath when you talking about him...
Even if you never realized that...

I rather die than seeing you with him...
Just let the black angel come and get me...
Take my soul...
Burn me...
Bury me...

Where's your heart...
You've already knows...
That I love you...
I need you...
I could'nt let you go...

I know that I could'nt make you stay...
I know that I have no chance...
No hope...
Nothing that I could do to change all of this...

Than leave me...
Let me go...
Why you never...
Just go from my mind...
Just go from my dreams...
Just disappear...
Please...

I could'nt hold this pain anymore...
I should do something...
Even if that will kill me...
Even if that will stab me...
Even if that will burn all my expectations...

Hopeless...
Desperate...
Dead...

Something that you should know...
I'll never leave...
I'll keep sitting here...
Stay here...
Waiting for your presence...
Waiting...
For you...
Till I die...

Nothing...

The demons has betrayed me...

Kill me...

Burn me...

Bury me...

After all...

That happens to you and me...

That happens to this century...

That happens to these lies...

You owe me your blood...

You owe me your heart...

You owe me...

This darkness has taken me away...

So far from lies...

So far from you...

Im sick...

Im tired...

Of all that tears...

Of all that painful...

Black comes and get me...

What if...

There's no light for me out there...

Say a pray...

Hope...

Faith...

Nothing will gonna change...

Nothing...

 

Sorry...

If we never met...
If we never talk...
If we never know each other...

We'll never feel this pain...
We'll never hurt each other...
I'll never hurt you...
And you'll never hurt me...

We could'nt blame the destiny...
We could'nt blame the God...
We could'nt blame ourself...

We just walking on the road...
We just strike the match...
We just holding our own faith...
We just believe our heart...

And now...
We are the broken...
We are the desperate...
We are the slumped...

I just wanna say sorry...
For all the things that I've done to you...
For all the words that I've told you...
For all the outlook that I've see...

I just wanna leave...
Leave your heart...
Leave your sight...
Leave you...

Thank you...
For giving me time...
To talk to you...
To saw you...
To think about you...

I'll be glad if the death comes and get me...

I'll be happy if the hell welcome me...

Things are better If we seperate...
Things are better if I leave you alone...
You'll be happy ever after...
And Ill watch you from there...

And maybe...
We'll meet again..
In our next life...
With another story...
Not a pain story...
But a Love Story...

Angelic Avanger

Im...

An angel...

Black angel...

Death angel...

Dark angel...

Im...

The savior of the broken...

The beaten...

The damned...

Im...

The hurted...

The painful...

The wasted...

Im...

The blood...

The scream...

The broken heart...

And I...

Will return all that you have do to me...

Will bring you to tears...

Will kill your heart...

Cause Im...

The angelic avanger...

Revenge

Now I know...
Now I realize...
Now I figure out...

That you...
Never give me a hope...
Never give me a chance...
Never...

And now I know...
That Im the fool...
The beaten...
The damned...

I need a savior...
Not a killer...

Why am I love you...
If you keep hurting me...
Why am I still with you...
If you keep stabbing my heart...

But where's your heart...
Where's your mind...
Im still here!
Could you little bit recognize me...

And Ill leave you...
Here alone...
And maybe...
Ill come back...
With all the pain that you have given to me...

I never expect that Ill do this to you...
If you could break my heart...
Than I could do the same...

Cry...

Ill seek for hell...
Ill looking for knives...
Ill find darkness...
And give that all to you...

And the blood...
Will be the witness...
For my revenge...

You Should'nt Say That

Could you know...
You've hurt me...
Really really hurt me...

I tought you've turn...
And forget him...

You said a sweet word to me...
Really sweet...
And blinded me...

But I've wrong...
That words...
Was not for me...
But for HIM...

You know...
If you just wanna hurt me...
You shouldnt say that...
If you just wanna break me...
You shouldnt do that...

Do you know Im flying after I read it...
And dying after read the next message...
Do you  know...
Im suffer...
Please...
Im really really cant hold it anymore...
Bury me...
I just want to DIE...

Its better for me...
If you dont need me...
I better leave this world...
I better leave you...
And let you live your life WITH HIM...
AND NOT WITH ME...

Goodbye

We're here...
Sitting together...
With silent...
Without a single voice...

Nevertheless...
Our eyes couldnt stop...
Staring each other...

I hold your hand...
Hug it tight...
Like will never let it go...

Why...
Why this destiny require me to leave...
Why...
Why they could'nt let us finish our story...

Nothing worst that I could say...
Nothing...
Im really sorry...
I have to go...

Just remember...
My heart...Is always belongs to you...
My dreams...Is always become your place to stay...

And maybe...
Someday...
A ship will harbor in front of you...
Bring my dead body...
Yes...
My dead body...

Miss me...
Dream on me...
Imagine about me...

Dont turn...
Dont ever turn away from me...

Well...My love...
See you in the next life...
Ill say your name there...
Goodbye...

Could You...

I just wanna ask you something...

Could you hear me...

Are you near me...

Could you feel my presence...

Even if I just a ghost...

Could you listen to my whispers...

Even if my mouth is shutted...

Could you hold my arms...

Even if Im not beside you...

Could you walk...

Even if you step the broken glass...

Could you shout...

Even if you break down your throat...

Could you cry...

Even if your tears has wasted...

Could you feel...

Even if you are bleeding...

Could you know me...

Even if I never exist...

Could you bury me...

Even if I never die...

Could you know...

My heart was made just for you...

My Dear...I'll Go To Hell

Well... Sorry before...I took some MCR's words...I cant hold it anymore...Their lyrics was very very deep...

Now I know...
That I cant make you stay...
But where's your heart...


You've ignore...
Its done...
Already done...


I have no chance left...
Nothing that I could say...
Nothing that I could do...


You never say my name...
You never see my eyes...
You never hear my whispers...


My dear...
I'll go to hell...


Say my last word...
Before I fall...
Before I leave...


Bury me...
Bury my dead body...
Under the dark...
Behind the light...


Dont cry...
You should'nt have to...
Dont wait...
I'll never come back...


Please...
Dont let the tears wet you...
I hate to see you cry...


My dear...
I'll go to hell...

Dead

I...
Always waiting here...
Always standing here...
Always be here...


I...
See you...
Hear you...
Feel you...


But...
You go...
You leave...
You disappear...


Could you hear me...
Cry out to you...
Words I tought...
I'd choke when I figure out...


And now...
I desperate...
I weak...
I fall...


Why...
I still love you...
I still want you...
I still dream on you...


Let me go...
Please...
Just let me go...


Let me dead...
Please...
Let me dead!
Its better...
Than I see you with him...
Than I see you touch him...
Than I see you hold him...
Than I keep this pain...


You...
Put a spike in my heart...
Kill me inside...
Break my souls...
Silence my shadow...


I really really dont know...
Why...
I cant turn from you...
You give me nothing...
Except pain...
You hurt me so deep...


Now...
Im already dead...
Yes...
Im Dead...

Helena - My Chemical Romance

Well...I post in again after Syeh The MCRmy...But you know...For me,the Helena lyrics was very very good and deep...They tell us exactly what I feel, and what's happening to me...So just check it out...

Long ago...
Just like the hearse you die to get in again...
We are so far from you...


Burning on...
Just like a match you strike to incinerate...
The lives...
Of everyone you know...


And what's the worst you take...
From every heart you break...
And like a blade you stain...
Well...
I've been holding on...
Tonight...


What's the worst that I could say...
Things are better if I stay...
So long and goodnight...
So long and goodnight...


Came a time...
When every stars fall...
Brought you to tears again...
We are...
The very hurt you sold...

And what's the worst you take...
From every heart you break...
And like a blade you stain...
Well...

I've been holding on...

Tonight...

What's the worst that I could say...
Things are better if I stay...
So long and goodnight...
So long and goodnight...


Well if you carry on this way...
Things are better if I stay...
So long and goodnight...
So long not goodnight...


Can you hear me...
Are you near me...
Can we pretend...
To leave and then...
We'll meet again...
When both our cars...
Collide...


What's the worst that I could say...
Things are better if I stay...
So long and goodnight...
So long not goodnight...


Well if you carry on this way...
Things are better if I stay...
So long and goodnight...
So long and goodnight...

You Are...

You are...
The night...
The stars...
The whispers...
The light...
The pain...
The blood...
The end...
The wound...
The hopeless...
The unforgettable...


You walks on the broken glass...
You look for place to hide...
You ruin the shadow...
You freeze the air...
You turn off the light...
You kill me inside...


I've tried...
To hold you...
To protect you...
To hear you...
To chase you...


But you...
Never seem to understand...
Never seem to see...
Never seem to think...
Never seem to realize...


That I...
Always there beside you...

Please...

Im standing here...
At the top of the highest ruined building...
Staring at the night sky...
Without stars...
Just the moon...
That accompany me...
Tonight...


This curious...
Have always blinded me...
If I could...
I just wanna jump down from here...
And feel the cold death...


Im nothing...
Except confused...
Tried to guess...
Tried to figure out...


I cant sleep tight...
I cant see well...
I couldnt breath...


Please...
Dont let me ask the night...
Dont make me confuse...
Dont make me desperate...
Dont let me dead...


Please...
Tell me if you love me...
Tell me if I always come to your dreams...
Tell me if I stayed in your heart...
Tell me if I always appear in your eyes...


Even if I dont...
I want...
To hold your arms...
To staring your eyes...
To sit next to you...
To feel your presence...
To keep you in my heart...


Cause the hardest part of this...
Is leaving you...

Perasaanku

Well...I repost it from shintaagh.blogspot.com . That blog belongs to Shinta Aghnia Adeline...A girl that really good in poetry...And well...Check it out...


"Jujur...
Aku menyukaimu sejak awal kita bertemu
Sejak kamu menyimpan sedikit kepedulian tentang hidupku
Sejak kamu sering mengajakku untuk berbincang-bincang membicarakan hal yang tidak penting

Jujur...
Aku senang sekali bisa mengenalmu
Bisa lebih dekat denganmu

Entah kapan...
Aku mulai mencintaimu
Aku mulai menyayangimu

Tapi mengap...
Saat itu kau tak merasakan hal yg sama
Seperti halnya yg aku rasakan
Seperti halnya yg aku inginkan

Lalu aku pun menjalin hubungan dengan lelaki lain
Untuk segera melupakanmu
Melupakan arti dari kepedulianmu
Yang ku rasa cinta
Namun ternyata salah

Beberapa saat aku bisa melupakanmu
Namun entah mengapa
Perasaanku tak dapat beralih

Aku berusaha terus melupakanmu
Namun ternyata ku dapati bahwa aku benar-benar tak bisa
Dan aku baru sadar
Sahabatku, mulai menyukaimu

Begitu sakit, ketika aku tau sahabatku menyukaimu
Aku berusaha untuk bertahan
Aku tau dia pantas untukmu
Dan yg lebih sakit...
Ku dapati bahwa kamu pun menyukainya
Biarlah
Biar aku yg mengalah...

Namun aku pun bahagia
Aku bisa melihat senyummu seindah itu
Meski itu bukan karenaku
Meski itu karena dia..."

Merobek Hati

Well...I saw this writing in Facebook...This belongs to my friend, Matt Squad Seven .Im not sure if this is his own creation...(Kidding Matt)

"Apa yang membuat kau mencintainya...
Selalu menyayanginya...
Hingga kau tak ingin tuk berpaling...
Setiap hari...
Kau bicarakan dia....

Dan tanpa kau sadari...
Kau merobek hati ini
Sungguh sakit...

Semua rasaku padamu...
Terbalas sudah...
Dengan semua kesakitan..
Dan semua cinta yang aku beri...
Sudah terbalaskan.....
Dengan air mata...

Memang bukan salahmu...
Melakukannya kepadaku...
Karena kau tak tahu...
Isi hatiku...

Aku terlalu pengecut...
Tuk mengatakan ku mencintaimu....
Apa adanya...." 

Maaf...

Well...Actually,I made this for my friends...This is a love story about him...So for my fans...Dont worry...Im still single (who ask that???)

"Dahulu kala...
Ketika  kita  masih  bersama...
Saat  kau  masih  milikku...
Saat  hatimu  hanya  untukku...

Aku  telah  mencoba...
Melakukan  apa  yang  kau  minta...
Memenuhi  apa  yang  kau  ingin...
Bahkan  walau  semua  itu  mustahil...

Tetapi  kini...
Saat  kau  telah  pergi...
Semua  terasa  berbeda...
Sepi...
Tak  ada  lagi  yang  menemani...

Kau  punya  yang  lain  sekarang...
Aku  hanya  bisa  melihat  dari  jauh...
Aku  membatin  dalam  hati...
Andaikan  kau  kembali  padaku...
Tetapi  aku  tahu  semua  itu  tak  mungkin  terjadi...

Namun...
Sesuatu  bergerak  dalam  pikiranku...
Menyadarkanku...

Bahwa  dia  bisa  membahagiakanmu...
Lebih  dari  aku  membahagiakanmu...
Semua  itu  terlukis  di  senyummu...
Yang  kau  beri  untuknya...
Bukan  untukku...

Aku  pun  hanya  bisa  pasrah...
Tak  ada  yang  bisa  aku  lakukan...
Andaikan  waktu  bisa  terulang...
Tentu  aku  akan  memperbaiki  semuanya...

Aku   hanya  ingin  bilang...
Maaf...
Karena  dulu  aku  tak  bisa  membahagiakanmu...
Karena  dulu  aku  tak  bisa  melukis  senyum  di  wajahmu...
Tetapi...
Walau  sedikit  waktu  yang  kau  beri  untukku...
Aku  hanya  ingin  kau  tahu...
Bahwa...
Aku  menyayangimu..."

Hanya Kau

Well...Actually,Im an Indonesian so...I made this with Indonesian language...But dont worry...Ill always make these in Indonesian and English...


"Akankah kutemukan tempat...
Yang lebih indah daripada di pelukanmu...
Akankah kutemukan suara...
Yang lebih merdu daripada bisikanmu...
Akankah kutemukan sutera...
Yang lebih halus daripada wajahmu...
Akankah kutemukan kapas...
Yang lebih lembut dari uraian rambutmu...
Akankah kutemukan air...
Yang lebih jernih daripada matamu...
Akankah kutemukan mawar...
Yang lebih cantik daripada parasmu...
Akankah kutemukan rasa...
Yang lebih nyaman daripada cintamu...


Tidak...
Hanya pelukanmu...
Hanya bisikanmu...
Hanya wajahmu...
Hanya uraian rambutmu...
Hanya matamu...
Hanya parasmu...
Hanya cintamu...
Yang bisa membuatku merindukanmu..."

Desperate

And this is mine...I repost this from Syeh The MCrmy

"Before...
"Im an evil...
That never know about love and happiness...


I live my bored life...
Every day...
And every night...
That's all passed like it never happened...


But one day...
Something happened...


I saw you there...
Right behind me...
Maybe just 50 cm far...
You sat there...
Working your test...


When the night fell...
I cant closed my eyes...
There's just one thing in my mind...
Your face...


I tried to talk to you on the next days...
You're a kind girl...
Then there we are...
Talking like an old friend...
And forget about our test...


After that embrace...
My life has changed...
From bad to good...
From dark to light...
From black to white...


And after almost a year passed...
I presume myself...
And got ready to tell you what I feels...


But...
In the cold night...
I opened your social network profile...
And got an information that...
You have a new boyfriend...


I feel...
Painful...
Numb...
Dead...
Like killed by thousand blades...
Like fell from the highest building...
Like I never live before...
And will never live my life anymore...


But I know I couldnt give up...
I always tried...
And tried...


What's the worst that I could say...
I just wanna see you happy...
Even without me...
So I sacrifice my love...
Just for you...


And maybe you never realized...
When you're walking...
Or laughing with your friends...
There are a pair of eyes...
Staring at you from a distance...


And you know what???
Its my eyes..."

Intermezzo

Well...Remember Intermezzo in Syeh the MCRmy ? Ill post it again here... :)))


Well, I see this writing in Facebook...This note belongs to...Someone...Someone that I always see in my dreams...And she knows exactly what I feel...And this is it...I dont translate to keep it original...I just edited few things like the capital letters, etc...


"Dalam hati...
Aku menangis...
Aku terluka...
Aku tersakiti...
Dengan perasaan ini...
Yang kian hari kian menyiksa...


Begitu sakit...
Ketika aku menyadari bahwa kamu mencintai orang lain...
Bukan aku...


Begitu sakit...
Ketika aku melihatmu tertawa karena dia...
Bukan karena aku...


Sampai kapan aku harus berpura-pura...
Tidak mencintaimu...
Tidak peduli tentangmu...


Sampai kapan aku harus begini...
Menutupi semua perasaanku...
Bahwa sebenarnya aku mencintaimu...


Aku tahu...
Memilikimu adalah hal yang tidak mungkin...


Aku juga tahu...
Aku tak ada di hatimu...
Di mimpimu...
Di dalam hidupmu...


Aku tahu...
Sebenarnya kau tidak mencintaiku...
Tapi aku tak tahu...
Kenapa sampai sekarang aku masih bertahan dengan perasaan ini..."

Well...Thumbs up for that writing :))))...

Intro

Well...Hi again...Um..Ill use this blog...Not for MCR..Its for myself...So yeah...Thats it...And dont forget to visit Syeh The MCRmy !!!!!

And um...Thank you very much for HER that always gimme inspiration to create all of this....